ive read Annie's baby by Annie herself but edited by Beatrice Sparks .
danial read a few pages too ;
ashiqin and amirah along with emy already finished it .
deena's waiting for me to read .


ive read the book ; its nice but really sucky ( i dont get kyself sometimes )
then it happened .

"The PAST will forever be a part of my PRESENT as well as my FUTURE ."

ive been thinking alot about hariz lately . its like im so angry with him but wanting so much to let him go . its like i miss everything i did with him . its so hard when youve been together for a long period of time and had to be accustomed to different things . god , it was so hard for me to accept the fact that he wanted so much and had waited so long to break with me . WHY ? i asked so many times . but again , no one has answered not even hariz himself . i feel so stupid and sad . ive been feeling so out of place i wished i wasnt born at all . i want to so much make ammends . make everything go the way i had wanted him to . GOD , WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS ? why did he talk to me like that ? i was like a doll to him . no point me saying all this bullcrap when no one cares . so by luck , i hope he reads this :


Dear Hariz , i wish you all the best , i find myself hating everything that im doing including this message that im sending you . be it you'll read it or not . i want you to know that ive always liked being that important person in your life ; the one who was always on the phone with you ; the one who mattered alot ; the one you called your girlfriend and the one being loved and missed by you . of course im utterly bittered by what you had to tell me . but i want to wish you the best (:

short and simple .

takecare hariz ; for i still . . .

((: anna wonders .