i got friggin pissed today.
mrs chee, she like totally made me super duper sad lorh.
she said i can only attend the next trip to some other place next year.
NEXT YEAR, YOU HEAR THAT.
like ive said, bangkok's a bitch.
so nice and full of clothes.
and nice stuff.
she said the application or what shit close already.
she said if i had told her a month sooner, it would be muchmuchmuch more better for i would have gotten in.
thats why im sad - too hopeful liao.
but nonetheless, ive still got lovely school to attend to.
OMG. i so forgot to meet mrs koh tadi!
omgomgomgomg. nvm.
anyways, i just decided to blog so i could distress a little.
im not much in a stress.
more of a disappointment cum confusion kinda state.

just now, me and ashhy along with ami.
we went to the hangout spot.
but before we went there.
ashhy got a msg.
it was from whoever the whatever.
the person messaged me when i was otw to sp.
but i couldnt reply.
she messaged qin.
i called the person lah.
she bebual keling.
sialah, that part i was like super fed up lah.
first, she called me a minah - i totally am not, ah girl.
then she act like she dont know who the hell sms`ed me.
like wtf kan.
then i messaged again.
i called.
then the person picked up and asked if i was ashhy.
not blowing the cover, i passed the phone to ashhy.
they talked.
she said got problem with me and dd.
she said she was Dd's girlfriend since two months ago.
she mentioned Im and Dna.
walao, DRAG SOMORE PEOPLE LAH.
YOUR MOTHER DONT WANT TO TALK TO ME UH?
fcuk lah. i got so pissed.
i started tearing and cursing.

if you had wanted a clean ending, you should have told me to my face.
guys are such people who i believe are not much of the 'balls' kinda people.
dont ask someone to call me on the phone.
i wont oblige to you request.
you can believe what you want.
just dont make me hate my friend.
or rather, dont FRIEND, dont make me hate him.

oh you nimcompoops!

Labels: winners make commitments; losers make promises.

BANGKOK , LET ME GO TO YOU .

YOU MAKE ME DESPERATE , BANGKOK'S SUCH A BITCH.
( YOURE ACTING LIKE YOURE THE ONLY COUNTRY ON EARTH )

dammit.

Labels: " pompan sume sundal. kau ah", hazmir said

damn, i was really bored.
i dont like going online because my whole computer will lag of all the sudden conversations.
i suddenly felt a need to hear this song.
dammit .. if only someone would sing this to me.
LIKE NOW.
hhee.







" Now You're Gone "

Now you're gone
I realised my love for you was strong
And I miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone with your pictures hanging on the wall

Now you're gone
I realised my love for you was strong
And i miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone with your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
Without my Anna it will break apart
It won't heal, it never fades away
I'll be thinkin' 'bout you everyday

Are you Ready?
Ready for take-off!

Now you're gone

I realised my love for you was strong
And i miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone with your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone

Now you're gone
I realised my love for you was strong
And i miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone with your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
Without my Anna it will break apart
It won't heal, it never fades away
I'll be thinkin' 'bout you everyday


THATS IN ENGLISH . THE ONE BELOW IS THE ORIGINAL VERSION.





"Boten Anna"

Jag känner en bot
Hon heter Anna. Anna heter hon,
och hon kan banna banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal.
Jag vill berätta för dig att jag känner en bot.

Jag känner en bot
Hon heter Anna. Anna heter hon,
och hon kan banna banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal.
Jag vill berätta för dig att jag känner en bot,
som alltid vaktar alla som är här,
och som ser till att vi blir utan besvär.
Det finns ingen take-over som lyckas.
Kom ihåg att det är jag som känner en bot.

En bot som ingen ingen annan slår
Och hon kan kicka utan att hon får
Hon gör sig av med alla som spammar
Ja ingen kan slå våran bot

(Musik)

Ready for take off

Are you ready

Jag känner en bot
Hon heter Anna. Anna heter hon,
och hon kan banna banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal.
Jag vill berätta för dig att jag känner en bot.

Då kom den dagen jag inte trodde fanns
Den satte verkligen kanalen ur balans
Jag trodde aldrig att jag hade så fel
Men när Anna skrev och sa

Jag är ingen bot
Jag är en väldigt, väldigt vacker tjej,
som nu tyvärr är väldigt främmande för mig.
Men det finns inget som behöver förklaras,
för i mina ögon är hon alltid en bot

Hon heter Anna. Anna heter hon,
och hon kan banna banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal.
Jag vill berätta för dig att jag känner en bot,
som alltid vaktar alla som är här,
och som ser till att vi blir utan besvär.
Det finns ingen take-over som lyckas.
Kom ihåg att det är jag som känner en bot,

En bot som ingen ingen annan slår,
och hon kan kicka utan att hon får.
Hon gör sig av med alla som spammar.
Ja, ingen kan slå våran bot!

Ready for take off

(musik)

Are you ready




( DUH, i dont understand the lyrics. but obviously, it should be the same with the one above (: )
Cool horh. heh. this is basically what i do when im bored. nonsensical? (:

i highlighted those i found my name on. HEH. best kan .. hehe.

i woke up so early today, but heck, daddy kept the modem. so now, after almost 7 hours of waiting, here i am blogging.

ive been in deep thoughts these few days.
since all the commotion have died down a little, i wish to bring it up all back.
i dont know why im thinking like this.
life has never been ever so peaceful since the start of this wishful year.
i want the drama of all of us quarelling to start again.
maybe im being to paranoid in whatever situation i am in now.
i just want things to be like how they were before every pathetic soul ended up being in every problem.

if chloe knew i was gonna write this shits, she'd be nudging me saying
" annnnnaaaaa, dah, dont world here. cite dah abes buat hal abes luhhh"
but i cant.

i think that these problems only arose every since this particular YOU, was in it.
YOUve lost it manggs.
lost my trust.
lost the friendship.
lost almost everything.
everyone around YOU have been thinking whether being friends with you was fate or was it planned from the beginning.
stop saying that YOUre sorry.
YOU cant stop time from moving when YOU apologise.
can YOU?
YOU couldnt stop rain from falling when YOU said YOU were sorry.
sometimes, my heart aches to see how pathetic i am, when im actually able to stand YOUr bullshits and no end stories.
why am i giving YOU sympathy?
why are YOU trying to be me?
orang laen, jangan terase.
and i thought I was the bad influence.


theres simply no point in me saying such stuff about YOU.
ive lost all faith in YOU.
YOU can brag on YOUr life for all i care.
YOU can jump down a building all YOU want.
YOU cant make me suffer all the time.
one day, he'll turn his back on YOU and say,
" honestly, i was like him all along. Im sorry YOU were too blind to notice that. "

Labels: I'll never let you go. Never.

ONCE AGAIN, the story of the whore. ( call me bad, i dont mind. )

Caption`ed : Act Cute.

Comments : Seriously, are you for REAL?

oh my god.
today's really boring.
like boring shit manggs.
i met emy at the bus stop at 320.
then we went to wdlnds.
met qin.
ate at LJs.
then met jun.
went to lib.
discuss PJ.
then decided, we slacked.
i called isaac.
woots.
actually want to ask about the schedule but ended up saying other stuff.
heh.
at around 650, qin went home.
me and emy supposingly go down to the interchange but we decided to walk instead.
so we walked.
nice lah.
cause its been a long since me and emy walked together alone and talked.
we looked at the sun set and all.
bestbest.
then it was about 730 that we decided to take the bus home.
we took the last row.
we talked about incidents in the bus from last year till now.
then we did the 'jiwe' kinda promise for some random issues.
went home.
then on comp.
check blog.
reconstructed it.
linked people.
i got the designs already.
in dire need of the funds and all.
dammit.

Dear izzuan, are you okay?

MAROON 5 LYRICS

"Better That We Break"

I never knew perfection till
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break…

A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane
The city look so nice from
Pity I can’t see it clearly
While you’re standing there, it disappears
It disappears

Its not right, not OK
Say the word it should say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?I’m not fine, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?

I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break, baby.

some MoFo asked me to update my blog and called me bodoh.
bloody kind freak.

its been kinda boring.
and obviously, im bored to death even with a boyfriend and some other brilliant friends.
not saying that i dont treasure them.
its just been boring.
i would know how to break up the news later.
im just fickle and young.
haha. Dammit.


today (24 april) :
had classes as usual.
i knew mummy was going to school to talk to my teachers.
but instead, i was calm enough to allow my mum to make a scene.
i know if i had made a comment, she would turn the whole school upside down.
during maths lesson, i met up with Mdm Toh.
she wasnt very angry like i thought she would be.
she even joked with me.
so it was like a heckcare situation.
during school hours.
kelvin and janson kept teasing me.
they called me GREEN.
no, ive yet to forget.
ikrimah & danial however had to tease me after school.
they too called me GREEN.
Imran kept saying " eehk! noshamenoshame, GREEN "
HAHA.
so whatever, i did the same thing again.
go to the shop after school.
boyfee had some supp lessons.
i was suppose to meet him after that but i was late.
then he was like "janji sket pon tak leh."
i was not pissed lah. i was just a lil irritated.
so i made excuses lah.
which were true.
( i wore some coloured bra today and it was damn obvious)
Then boyfee was like indirectly sounding me.
he asked me to cover my front with his bag.
sounded alil too overprotective.
Too bright meh?
hazmir's big mouth.
haha.
hazmir and aidah damn cute lah.
tsktsk.
then we met the rest at the void deck.
went to the lib.
then went to cp.
by then, most of them went home.
then lepak at cp.
then went home.



i need the money lah ! - RANDOM.

Ramdan Rashiddee Yusri. ( dd/dede)
im attached.
"I LOVE YOU" sounds so cliche.
so i'll just leave it that he's mine and i like him.
((:
thats the latest so far.
will update again (:

[My fav quote]
So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone

They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday... But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.
Do you think our love, can take us away together?
I think our love can do anything we want it to.

That's my sweetheart in there. Wherever she is, that's where my home is.
My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever.

Those are the quotes from the movie,The Notebook.Lovely movie i must say,it was splendid and at the same time very sad.Too sad actually especially when you're going through a really bad breakup.When the character,Allie,was quarelling and hitting the guy character,Noah,it totally brought back some memories.The part where she shouted "i hate you" to the guy but she actually loved him more than he could ever imagine,well yeah,that part made me cry cuz i know exactly how she felt.

I'VE NEVER FELT THIS LOW.
SOMETIMES,I WISH THAT I CAN HATE YOU TO THE DEEPEST CORE SO THAT I CAN HAVE ALL THE STRENGTH TO LEAVE YOU.
but too bad,i just can't because i still love him wholeheartedly.


i called you love a year ago.
youre still my love for a year, a month and 5 days.

I miss fira alot.
flashbacks ..
because of fira, i met dear hariz.
but on second thought, i wouldnt want to be reminded of the past.
carrying on,
because of fira, i experienced actual happiness.
i was like really happy.
i can recall all the moments i kept calling fira.
haha.
i was troubling her to the extend man.
then she broke up with amin.
i was like fcuking pissed at amin lah.
i wanted to meet him personally y'know.
then tak lame lagy,
they patched.
haha. cute lah kirekn.
FIRAMIN.
bleahhh~


i miss fira! alot.
i know at times when youre sad, you feel like no one's giving a shit about you;
im here.

i miss your laughter especially.
i miss you alot.

oh fira, lets meet up someday ((:

sorry i havent been updating.

haha (: thanks guys for the compliments towards the post.

i thought no one reads anna's blog.
well. ive been really busy.
busy because ive been needed to do ALOT of chores and assignments.
i cannot balance my schedule that well so i'm reducing my blogging time to doing my school works.

if you'd ask me, i wouldnt wanna post here even if i had time.
well, not that i dont want to post.
i would, but its like im emotionally insane at the moment so i wouldnt want posts about the things im going through, affecting my blogging style.
you find my reason stupid but im being real honest.








its been hard for me these few days.
because ive been sick.
not only physically but mentally too.
ive never been so stressed out in my life.
just recently, i skipped three periods of lessons in school by staying up in class while everyone's at the learning venue.
i find it oh so not professional that im skipping lessons just to distress myself.
Whatmore, im suppose to be an examplary student.
i too find it selfish that im worrying the others around me.
no one reprimanded me for doing so because they understood the situation.
well, i think my situation is far from serious.
its really minor. but its really affecting everything.
making it a bigbig issue.
Well the main mess was family and work.
then my life added a + FTB bf to commitments and problems.
Like hell, DAMMMIT.
bigbig issues makes it hard for me to cope with everything.
i cry almost everyday, always leaving things like unattended to or not finishing it up.
im sorry to trouble those who have helped me along the way.
its as though im coping up with another scene of death.
you may not understand the hell fuck im talking about.
but im happy i didnt talk nonsensically like i always do.
at least this post proves something to some people and makes people understand.
"Oh Anna , shut the lame emo crap. OR Anna, youre making me confuse."
sorry. well, you'll have to be in my shoes to understand me.
Im not being an emoshit.
im learning to stand on my two feet, you scums.
It's gonna get harder but im willing to let go and give it a try.


Thank you dear ones for standing by me.
Family:
- I HOPE ALL GETS WELL SOON.
- I WANT TO PROVE IM GOOD.
Work:
- I'LL BE ABLE TO COPE YOU SON OF A BITCH.
- STOP JUDGING ME.
Boy:
- I'LL WAIT, DONT WORRY.


oh, and hey, fuck you evil creatures.
you can look down on me now.
we'll see who'll bother to catch you when youre falling down.
((: