i woke up so early today, but heck, daddy kept the modem. so now, after almost 7 hours of waiting, here i am blogging.

ive been in deep thoughts these few days.
since all the commotion have died down a little, i wish to bring it up all back.
i dont know why im thinking like this.
life has never been ever so peaceful since the start of this wishful year.
i want the drama of all of us quarelling to start again.
maybe im being to paranoid in whatever situation i am in now.
i just want things to be like how they were before every pathetic soul ended up being in every problem.

if chloe knew i was gonna write this shits, she'd be nudging me saying
" annnnnaaaaa, dah, dont world here. cite dah abes buat hal abes luhhh"
but i cant.

i think that these problems only arose every since this particular YOU, was in it.
YOUve lost it manggs.
lost my trust.
lost the friendship.
lost almost everything.
everyone around YOU have been thinking whether being friends with you was fate or was it planned from the beginning.
stop saying that YOUre sorry.
YOU cant stop time from moving when YOU apologise.
can YOU?
YOU couldnt stop rain from falling when YOU said YOU were sorry.
sometimes, my heart aches to see how pathetic i am, when im actually able to stand YOUr bullshits and no end stories.
why am i giving YOU sympathy?
why are YOU trying to be me?
orang laen, jangan terase.
and i thought I was the bad influence.


theres simply no point in me saying such stuff about YOU.
ive lost all faith in YOU.
YOU can brag on YOUr life for all i care.
YOU can jump down a building all YOU want.
YOU cant make me suffer all the time.
one day, he'll turn his back on YOU and say,
" honestly, i was like him all along. Im sorry YOU were too blind to notice that. "

Labels: I'll never let you go. Never.